I'll spill my heart for you
The question doesn't really matter its the answer that counts. She didn't say my name. She told me she went to visit her aunt and uncle. Florida and Virginia are no where near each other. How could she lie like this. 3 Weeks ago we were getting married. Now im just fighting to save what i had. I still love her. Bart is in Virginia. She lied to me staight faced more times than i can count. I kissed her goodbye. i ran to her car when she got back, and for what? So she could lie to me some more. I figure though that in some screwed up way i deserve all this for all the transgressions of my life. If it were ment o be like every one says why wont it work? Can't i have some sort of sign? Please? Or a colt .45 all i will need is one shot. One shot but not through the head. That would just show how stupid and angry i was but if i shot my self through the heart it would show more. like all the love i lost how it feels to be hurt. then maybe she would care. but it would be too late and just like she told me "shoulda cared whn you had the chance" I think thats wha ti will do. tonight will be no more. a walther ppk-s will have to do fore i dont have a .45. Tell my dad i love him and tell my mom she was alwys the pain of my life. Mel i always loved you and i always will. Brian man i'm sorry. You were the only bro i ever had. Brittany and Candace. You werent worth my time. Kylalh i will always remember you. Megan why didn't you kill me when you had the chance? To all the teachers that thought they learned me a thing or two.Fuck you. .........Christy, im sorry i wasn't there whn i should have been i'm sorry i wasn't strong enough. i'm sorry i wasnt tall enough or good enough. All i wanted was to be with you. Now its all gone and so am I. i hope he treats you well i hope he can be what i wasnt. i hope you are happy.
Bye
Ellison